writing was my worst subject in school. here i am now- 2012 -writing a blog.
five years ago i didn’t believe in God. here i am now- a christian -writing a blog that i hope will glorify the same God i didn’t believe in five years ago.
upsidedown & insideout is how i feel when i look at where i am now versus where i thought I would be. more so than that, its a hope that, as I live out parts of my messy and beautiful life here, in writing, someone else will feel encouraged to live their life messy, too. documenting everything in my life from cooking//crafting//life as a newlywed//family//friends//our church//stories of grace//stories that inspire//books//clothes//etc-i hope that they will somehow encourage you in your specific needs and fill you with a desire to also live your life upsidedown & insideout.
i recently came across a prayer written by arthur bennett called “the valley of vision”. i believe that there is no better way to describe my hope and vision clearer than this:
Lord, high and holy, meek and lowly, Thou hast brought me to the valley of vision, where i live in the depths but see Thee in the heights; hemmed in by mountains of sin i behold Thy glory. Let me learn by paradox that the way down is the way up, that to be low is to be high, that the broken heart is the healed heart, that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit, that the repenting soul is the victorious soul, that to have nothing is to possess all, that to bear the cross is to wear the crown, that to give is to receive, that the valley is the place of vision. Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells, and the deeper the wells the brighter Thy stars shine; let me find Thy light in my darkness, Thy life in my death, Thy joy in my sorrow, Thy grace in my sin, Thy riches in my poverty, Thy glory in my valley.